I Wish I Could...

Don't you ever just want to escape for like a day or two and have no way to talk to people? And you'd just have so much fun and it would be relaxing?
I hate my life at that time because of these things!

I can't do a thing that should be held on this weekend. It has been planned about three months ago. We have organized everything well. It should be great and spectacular.

BUT.....

Suddenly, something ruin it all!
Everything's chaos! Everything's break up!

I don't know what should I do
I try hard. We try hard. But you don"t even know how much we try.
It's all just like a mess!

I get feelings that everything is wrong and I need to change it all. My useless plan, my wasting time of thinking  about these things, my way of caring too much, my too much sensitive feelings... EVERYTHING!

I just wish I could disappear at that day.

The day that should be a great moment for you, for me, and for us. Now, it's very impossible to reach!

What can I do now?
NOTHING!
JUST WAITING!

Even you don't know about the certainty of this thing, right? So, I must be waiting just for some uncertainty things??! STUPID ME?!

YES!

You never know how I feel. And you never care. aren't you?
Maybe I must learn from all these things.
Yes. I must learn to let go..