Sabtu, 27 April 2013

welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Selasa, 16 April 2013

From fans become friends (?) - When Nothing Impossible-

22 Maret 2013
The never forgotten moment when it becomes the starting point.
He suddenly gimme his contact number sent by Direct Message on twitter. It was surprising me in the morning. This is more great because I never ask him about his contact number. I know that it's his privacy that I may not bother, right?
I can't describe my feeling when finally I can communicate with him easily. Every time I want to talk about and tell something, I can chat him directly.

Day by day we start to talk about everything like a friends. He always ask me to give a comment about his performance on stage and share his photo to update them about his schedule and performance style. Sometimes he also share to me about his problem and ask me an advice to solve it. He also want me to give a comment about his fans problems, his new style, and everything he like and dislike. I always try to give my objective comment about it. Although I'm not a good problem solver, I might be a good listener :)

3 April 2013
The day that we planned to get a day meeting with his team. He say that he have a free time after finished his job for a photo shoot on evening. He gimme an info that his photo shoot almost done at 3.p.m and he ask where should we meet. I ask him to choose the cozy place to meet and he choose one of the steak cafe in Senopati. Me, with my friends, Dinna go to the place we want to meet. We arrived at the location for about 4.p.m and he tell me that he's still on the way . We're waiting for about 20 minutes and finally he came with a simple black shirt, blue jeans, sporty shoes, his lovely Jansport bag, and oh, look! He came with his new hair style! Handsome, as always...

He greet us with a hand shake, and say sorry for the late. He try to start the conversation.
When you get your FIRST time to meet someone you adore not as his fans, but as his friends and his team, what's your feel?? Awkward. Yes, I think so. But when the time goes by, the conversation' s flowed very smoothly.
We talked about everything. We were joking and laughing together for about 3 hours!
He ask us to choose some menu and I preferred to eat a tenderloin steak an mashed potato with barbeque sauce, same with him, but he prefer to choose with a mushroom sauce.



For 3 hours, we get bored with the place and he ask move to somewhere to get some fun there. He wanna sing a song together with us (karaoke)!!
WHAT? I almost can't believe it!!. How Come??! When you usually only watch your idol singing on a screen then suddenly he ask you to sing a song together with him in a private moment??? I think I wanna dye and fly at the same time in that moment!! But I try to be calm even though this heart felt like jumping high from the place! LOL

We get to Pacific Place by taxi around 10 minutes. I just feel so nervous when it is my first time walking with my favorite man in a crowded place. Don't ask me how I feel at that time.. I just want God not to lemme passed out on that spot! LOL.
The first time we come, all eyes are spotted on us! How not? I walked with the one most famous person in that city. oh, God.. I just walk slowly with him and follow his step, when actually my legs feel stiff like a robot! HAHA
then we walk to the karaoke place on the ground floor, we had to go down about two floors by escalators. In escalators, suddenly he pulled out his I-phone from his pocket and take us a picture by himself. You know? I feel that my heart just stop beating and my body are freezing at this moment!! *SKIP* :p

We sang together for about two hours. and many times I get duet with him. Oh God, in that time I just wanna fly high touching the sky! LOL
So many song he played and he sang great! He come out from nowhere and just sang and he did it good! When he sing a mellow song he just turn his slow voice we get to carried away. when the song beat fast he just get carried the spirit away. Ah, I just can say that the way he sing is growing rapidly and he has maintained his singing technique very well. Proud of you! :))
He also praised the way I sing. Many times he say that he proud with our voice. I feel so embarrassed at that time:$

Time flies, 10.00 p.m ...
The time when the happiest moment has come to over. He say many thank us for today, so do us. It just like I don't want to go home at that time. fuh. He drove us to the taxi queuing, saying goodbye with a warm hug and take care words.



Oh.
That day...
That moment...

When I just realize that he is sooooo kind. More than kind I think. He always different.
I can't describe in words, but he is always adorable and inspiring me in every way.
The way he talk, the way he share about everything, the way he treated us not as his fans anymore, but like his friends. And the way he protect us like his own sister.
He always do in a special way.


Thank you for everything, my favorite man!
Hope that there is another day when we can have a quality time to share, to eat, to walk, and to sing along...
Together...




Xoxo ;)




Senin, 01 April 2013

April Mop = NORAK!

1 April 2013
April MOP?
April Fools day?
Hari bohong sedunia?
Hari tipu-tipuan sedunia?

Kalo tradisi April Mop ini diperingati sama org2 di luar negeri sana kaya di Inggris, Amerika, Kanada, dan orang barat lainnya, krn kepercayaan bahwa apabila kita melakukan kejailan terhadap orang lain pada tanggal 1 April ini dilegalkan atau ga akan merasakan yang namanya dosa, ya biarin aja.

Trus apa kita mau ikut2an mereka? Buat ngerayain April Mop atau April fools day atau something like that?

Ya that's your choice sih.

Yg jelas gue prihatin krn sedari pagi di twitter, radio, dan jejaring sosial lain banyak bgt yg ikut2an April Mop April Mop -an.

Biar apa sih? Biar dibilang keren dan ngikut trend?

Buat lucu2 an dan seru2an aja?
Sorry to say ya, kalau menurut gue, itu semua NORAK.

Apalagi ikut2an nya buat nipu, bohongin atau ngerjain org.

Terus kalo udh bisa ngerjain, nipu, atau bohong ke org lain dan bilang APRIL MOP gitu, so what??

Apa esensinya?

Puas bisa ngerjain orang?
Puas bisa nipu orang?
Puas bisa bohongin orang?

Lha wong bohong kok bangga.
Nipu kok bangga.
Ngerjain orang kok bangga.

Bohong, nipu, ngerjain atau apapun itu ya namanya tetep aja merugikan orang, dan ujung2nya ya DOSA.

Bulan baru kok malah diawali dengan bohong2an, tipu2an, dan jail2an. Apa untungnya?

Mending instrospeksi diri buat jadi lebih baik lagi di bulan-bulan selanjutnya.

Prepare the worst but still pray for the best.

Ther're a lot of positive things we could do rather than April Mop-April Mop-an

Ya ga?

Hehey.
So, be smart aja.

Mau ikut2an dibilang keren dan gaul dengan ngerayain April Mop?

Atau mending mempersiapkan segala sesuatunya di bulan April dan bulan2 berikutnya biar jd lebih baik dgn segala kegiatan positif yg masih bnyk lg?

Ya, It's your choice! ;))


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